*Disclaimer – In the following post, I am going to use generalizations such as “we,” “us,” and “our” – please know that I DO realize, not EVERYBODY feels the same things and the same way. I do, however, have a feeling, that there are more of us that can relate than those who can’t. If you are one of the lucky people who cannot imagine what it feels like to share in any of the experiences below, count your blessings, baby – because you are one lucky girl! xo
Do you remember the first time you looked in the mirror and didn’t like the image staring back at you? What about the first time someone said something hurtful or unkind to you? Probably not. For a lot of us, that experience happened when we were far too young to even realize what was going on, so we put those feeling in our proverbial back pocket and let them stay there. We continue to go through life – experiencing ups and downs. For some of us, there may be more downs than ups, for others, we may just spend more time focusing on the downs then enjoying the ups and after a while, our pockets begin to droop and those feelings begin to find their way out, impacting each of us in various ways. For some of us, we use food (either in excess or in sparsity), for others – drugs/alcohol, for some, we become aggressive, while others completely introvert, some use our bodies for the attentions we felt we lacked, while others try to become invisible to the world around us. We look around and see our friends or our “not” friends, and they seem to be so happy and alive and content and we think to ourselves, why can’t I feel like they do?
The older we get, if we are lucky, smart, and touched (no not in a physical way) by the right people, we can learn to believe in ourselves, start listening to the positive more than the negative, and start to love who it is that we have become. We can also learn that if we don’t like where we are, we possess the strength to change and move on (more…)